They are IN :)

I had 2 "outstanding rated blasts" transferred yesterday! It was amazing! This time was so different for many reasons. ~ Last time we were so defeated before we even really began with the transfer -- we'd tried for a baby for a couple of years, had a miscarriage, and had a life-threatening reaction to the egg stimulation period of the IVF prep. Our minds, although incredibly excited, were in a different place ~ a stressful place where we questioned "what if THIS too doesn't work?!". This time, while we were in the room gowned up and waiting my thoughts were "THIS is how E's life began!". We have a real, amazing, 3 1/2 year old as a result of this who gives us joy each and every day. This time I feel physically and emotionally strong and well. There was so much less prep though so it seemed less real. Tues. I woke up nervous and felt a wreck inside! Wed. I woke up excited and ready! As soon as we got in the OR I became really emotional. Dr. A reviewed my history with the previous IVF then pregnancy and then joked that he couldn't believe I was back letting him see me again. ha! We are lucky he is so down to earth and personable. We then got the fantastic news that all but 1 of the zygotes made the thaw and 3 of 5 developed into "outstanding rated blasts"! The other 2 are pre-blasts and were progressing still also! 2 of the outstanding blasts - - #'s 3 & 8 were transferred. I get emotional thinking about that moment. Dr. A handed the catheter to the embryologist, he shortly came back in and handed it back - while Dr. A was placing my babies inside me I looked around the room - - Mike, 2 nurses, a resident, and I especially remember the look on the embryologists' face - - we were all full of hope. C'mon babies - - make a nice comfy home in there and let me hold you in my arms in 9 months or so! I couldn't speak and the tears flowed. SO amazing. I instantly had a feeling of calm and felt protective of these tiny beings now in me. We entered as a party of 2 and happily left as a party of 4! Now for the 2 week wait! I hope and pray we can expand our love to another child or children and give E a sibling or siblings!

We had told E that I had to go to the Dr. and then had to rest for 2 days. Mike picked him up from school and he immediately came into bed with me and held my hand. He is such a sweet sweet soul.