Preparing for our next baby(ies?)!

We are getting ready to do a frozen embryo transfer and I can't help but reflect. I sit here and look at Evan in amazement all over again and my heart flutters with excitement that 2 lives that were created when he was will be soon thawed and placed in me to hopefully grow and join us here on earth. It is purely amazing to me. This process is so much less involved, which I am grateful for because last time was so incredibly physically and emotionally stressful (yet TOTALLY worth every second of it to now have E). We went to the fertility clinic this past June. It felt like I had just been there yesterday. Walking down that hall so many emotions rushed in. Seeing all the staff, they all addressed me by name, sitting in the Dr.'s office got me way emotional. I remember hearing the financial stats the 1st time we were there then finding out our insurance company was based out of one of the few states that mandate infertility coverage. Whew, it all came rushing back. When I went for my first scan early in the morning I was once again in "that world". All of those women waiting for scans in that world of infertility that only we understand. We look at each other and without saying any words exchange hope to one another. We had a couple cycles that didn't go right - the 1st one was a birth control cycle to regulate. I didn't start my period when I was supposed to so it wasn't effective. The next cycle was an estrace cycle that had a successful period but the nurse forgot to tell me about having the Lupron Depo shot mid-cycle. SO - this one is it!

THE PLAN:
I took estrace then on day 15 Mike gave me the Lupron Depo shot and I began provental. I was supposed to start on the 24th and I started on the 25th! I am so proud of my body for doing what its supposed to! Went in this past Wed. for my baseline scan and bloodwork. All was well so I started estrace 2mg 3x/day vaginally and Vivelle patches every 3 days. Next Wed. I go in for another scan & bloodwork and the hope is that all is well again and I can begin progesterone oil injections and transfer the embryos on around Oct. 10th! It all seems surreal. I want it to be successful so bad! I feel that I have not given enough to this cycle but I think it is because it is less involved this time. I am going to really try to emotionally prepare this week for these new lives that will hopefully shortly be growing inside me!

Random thoughts about my 3 yr old

Our adventure of life continues and is beyond fabulous. I love love love you to pieces. You are growing SO fast! You have an amazing sense of humor. Your ability to make people smile by your sweetness or humor is a special gift you have. Still amazes me on a daily basis. You are thoughtful. You ask Daddy how his knee is feeling often, and its been a few months since he had surgery on it to fix a torn meniscus. You are not asking to get attention or a reaction - you genuinely are concerned and are wondering how it is. You recently moved to the 3 year old class at school. Although you love Ms. Tonya, the separation from Ms. Misty was hard for you. I think the class size and more independence in your new class was a bit overwhelming to you as well. Change is hard no matter what age you are so when you would cry in the morning for those first 2 weeks I wanted to cry too and many days had a lump in my throat walking out to my car. You see, this is one of the "firsts" for many hard changes and scary new situations you will go through in life. I just want to teach you the best I can to keep your head held high, don't feel like less of a person for being scared, and always speak what is on your mind. We just finished week 3, and although you cried today at drop off, this week went SO much better. I am so very proud of you. You are making new friends and have a few new favorites. Problem is, some of the "big boys" in your new class have a "hard time with their listening ears" and can be really naughty. I am so proud that you know that it is not ok to act like they do. I have been talking to you about how even if your friends are not listening and misbehaving you always need to be a good boy. Last week there was a teacher that told me as she was walking by your classroom most of the kids were going crazy and you were sitting there like a good boy listening to your teacher. What a proud moment for me. I bought you a ring pop to show you good boys get randomly rewarded with surprises. You love doing everything you can by yourself. You do a great job going potty and enjoy "peeing like a puppy dog" outside. Oh my, are you a true boy! On a road trip is when you 1st did it on the side of the road and you ask all the time ever since. If we walk up to the school playground and you have to go you get really pumped that you get to go on the side of the building. Oh man, so funny. You recently have been "talking inappropriately" about poopoo and toots. Again, true boy. oh boy! You told me that you like to be inappropriate. Oh my! Luckily when you are, poopoo talk is just at home. (knock on wood!). What else...you swam in your little pool last wkend and loved it! Hoping this summer you will enjoy swimming. You say you will so hopefully that's true! What fun we will have this summer! You are old enough to play on a playground without me being anxious that you will fall, you can skip naps and still be a good boy so we can go on day trips, and you appreciate super cool outings. SO.MUCH.FUN! Being your Mommy is by far the best thing I have ever experienced in my life. You like Friday nights - we have "Family Movie Nights" and go get slurpees. You usually make a rainbow slurpee with blue, red, and yellow. You love that Maxi comes with us and when we come out you laugh hysterically when he is in the driver's seat.

This post has been in drafts for months! Time to publish and start keeping up with this blog again!