Monday, October 13, 2008
Something happened today that I've been so excited for!
This morning Mike put his towel back on the rack and it made a loud noise. I was up already, but had not moved yet. The baby jolted when he heard the rack hit the door! It was the coolest thing and totally made my day. I have heard many Mom's say this...some negatively like "oh you don't feel your baby react to noises yet?... be grateful because once you do you'll wish you didn't...he will keep you up and disturb your sleep". I would reply "I WANT THAT!". Yes, he kept me up after that, and I didn't go back to sleep but I loved every minute of it!!!
Friday, October 10, 2008
6 months!!!!!!!!!
YIPEE!!!! I'm so excited for this milestone! Turns out the Dr. saw fluid in my lower right quadrant on the ultrasound, most likely from the adhesion issues going on down there. So more resting it is for me. But gosh, doesn't seem like forever now, just a few more months! SO exciting. I woke up from a short 3 hour sleep so pumped this morning. Maybe I couldn't sleep last night because my subconscious is too excited :) Interesting what people say about "nesting". I know what it is now, I started feeling it last week. My friend who I haven't seen in a long time, since very early in my pregnancy, offered to come over and do some stuff for me. I accepted immediately. I just want everything organized. Mike will start to experience these nesting feelings I'm having...his list has started. Mostly to do with starting the nursery. I want it done within the next month so I can just go up there and sit and fantasize about having our very own baby in our house. We don't have much to do, the room is already baby blue! Perfect. I found a border that matches our theme so that will make the room even more adorable. Today is a beautiful fall day outside...its so crazy that months ago I laid there day after day thinking...oooh in October (one of my favorite months) I'll hopefully be big and pregnant at all our Halloween events my sister and I take the boys too. And here we are...yes I'm sitting at them and am just an "observer" this year, but who cares - I'm pregnant and so so happy!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
What a day!
Well yesterday was quite a scary day. I hardly slept and then when I woke up the pain continued...it was different pain, same place (bowel area) but it felt like there was a giant brick in there. I had to go to the Dr. to fill out some paperwork so the Dr. ended up seeing me while I was there. He seemed a bit nervous which made me even more nervous. He ordered an ultrasound for today and said he wanted to check that everything else looks okay, and that the baby is okay. The bad part is that they can't see the bowel through ultrasound so we have no idea if its getting twisted again or what is happening. I guess they can't see the bowel because there is air in it...interesting, I always wondered why it couldn't be seen. He also said he would love to see pictures of the obstruction surgery.
Which leads to today...I went to the IVF clinic to pick up the surgery pictures. I was pretty emotionless until I was going up the elevator. Just remembering all the times I'd been in that same elevator. There was a couple in there going up to the clinic and I was just in awe at the feeling that came over me. From the first day that Mike and I went for our consult to when the clinic felt like a second home because I went there everyday for so long...and now - what we worked SO hard to achieve - has happened! I am so grateful every single day for being pregnant, but this was just such a strong "wow" moment. When I walked in my 2 favorite people at the clinic- Stephanie and Jackie- were behind the desk and freaked out when they saw my belly. It was also so unbelievable to say that I will be 6 months this Friday!!! As I went back down the elevator I fought back the tears...I remember one time when I was going through IVF sitting in the waiting room and a pregnant lady came in to pick something up and I just thought, wow - do you even realize how lucky you are? Of course she probably did because she was at a fertility clinic. But now that is ME! And yes, I realize how blessed I am.
From there I went to my ultrasound. My ovary is huge, but nothing abnormal other than that. The baby is GREAT! He measured perfectly and is just so adorable. I saw him yawn! He was kicking up a storm in there and being his normal wild self. He turned on her as she was taking measurements which he is famous for doing. He weighs 1lb6oz! My emotional state is much better today. I did nothing besides going to my appointment and to the clinic, and the pain is less. So they said to be laying down more and really taking it easy. Which is no problem to me. I want a TERM healthy baby boy if I can control it :) It turned out to be an unexpected really great day that is one I want to remember.
Which leads to today...I went to the IVF clinic to pick up the surgery pictures. I was pretty emotionless until I was going up the elevator. Just remembering all the times I'd been in that same elevator. There was a couple in there going up to the clinic and I was just in awe at the feeling that came over me. From the first day that Mike and I went for our consult to when the clinic felt like a second home because I went there everyday for so long...and now - what we worked SO hard to achieve - has happened! I am so grateful every single day for being pregnant, but this was just such a strong "wow" moment. When I walked in my 2 favorite people at the clinic- Stephanie and Jackie- were behind the desk and freaked out when they saw my belly. It was also so unbelievable to say that I will be 6 months this Friday!!! As I went back down the elevator I fought back the tears...I remember one time when I was going through IVF sitting in the waiting room and a pregnant lady came in to pick something up and I just thought, wow - do you even realize how lucky you are? Of course she probably did because she was at a fertility clinic. But now that is ME! And yes, I realize how blessed I am.
From there I went to my ultrasound. My ovary is huge, but nothing abnormal other than that. The baby is GREAT! He measured perfectly and is just so adorable. I saw him yawn! He was kicking up a storm in there and being his normal wild self. He turned on her as she was taking measurements which he is famous for doing. He weighs 1lb6oz! My emotional state is much better today. I did nothing besides going to my appointment and to the clinic, and the pain is less. So they said to be laying down more and really taking it easy. Which is no problem to me. I want a TERM healthy baby boy if I can control it :) It turned out to be an unexpected really great day that is one I want to remember.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
15 weeks - 23 weeks
WOW, as I am going through weeks 15 until now...so uneventful!!! And the events (knock on wood) = ALL good!!!
August 22nd: 17 weeks, I saw you today...yep you are still a boy. Hope you don't mind, we got a picture of your private parts today. This is the only time in your life I'll show people a picture of this - I promise!!!
September 10th: 19wks5days, today was such an emotional day for your Daddy and I. We went to U of M for your anatomy scan. I walked in there with many questions, and wondered if they would be answered, would our fears be confirmed, are you okay - can we breathe again after being so scared for 5 months? We got the best news we could ever imagine...you seem PERFECT - NORMAL - BEAUTIFUL. The Dr. is amazing, its like she is in my mind and knows what I need to hear. Her words still play over and over in my head. I am so proud of you, you are the strongest person I have ever met and I haven't even met you yet.
September 19th: 21 weeks, the great news made it over to Dr. F, he is so wonderful. Has such a huge heart and genuinely cares. We love him so much. Mommy is having some crazy bowel issues still so I have to take it extra easy so you can stay in my belly until its time for you to come out. No more ultrasounds for a while at his office...we will still go for our bi-weekly appointments but we have graduated from our bi-weekly ultrasounds :)
September 26th: 22 weeks, today Daddy and I went back to U of M for your heart test called a fetal echo. When the room gets silent and I'm hearing lingo I don't know, I get really scared. But guess what - once again your defy the odds and we are told your heart is normal! We leave feeling so beyond lucky. You were quite the funny little man today! It is so fun to watch you.
September 30th: We are getting ready for you! Last week we finished your registry which was SO much fun to do. I still get online daily and look at the things we are going to get for you. We bought your changing table and then a swing last week. We set up the swing in the living room before putting it away, and put it where it will go when you get here and sat on the couch just talking about you. Wow. Tonight we got a new refrigerator. Seems silly, but this is super exciting for us. Our old one leaked like crazy and I knew by the time you come I wouldn't want a leaky fridge - we want everything to be perfect for you! Oh ya, and by the way - today you nestled yourself way low in my pelvis...what in the world are you doing in there, come back up here - there is lots of room in the upper part of my belly. That would be much more comfortable for me and I can feel you kick more when you're up there! You're always trying to tease me in some way. But haha for you - I still have my doppler so even if I can't feel you, I can listen to you whenever I want!
October 3rd: 23 weeks, ahhhh - 1 month closer to meeting you! Just 3 months to go. I don't count January because by the time January 1st gets here the "day" countdown will begin. Today I had an appointment, didn't see you but you were talked about a lot :) Did you hear the Dr. bragging about you - my belly measured 24 weeks today which means you are growing GOOD! I was so happy to hear that my crazy pain is not affecting you at all. If you're good, then I'm good - whether I'm in pain or not. I gained 1 lb. per week the past 2 weeks which is good news - not too much, not too little. I really have to work on eating super healthy these next few weeks. Your friend Bradyn was born Oct. 1st at 26wks1day and he weighed 2lb2oz so I need to pack in that healthy food so you can grow big like him! Who would've guessed that you guys would be 3 months apart vs. 3 weeks apart! Your cousins will be spending the weekend with us so you will get talked to a lot. Kyle likes to tell you all sorts of things and when I ask him what he thinks you are doing he always says "probably pooping". You will love your cousins so much - they are the best and will teach you lots of things!
August 22nd: 17 weeks, I saw you today...yep you are still a boy. Hope you don't mind, we got a picture of your private parts today. This is the only time in your life I'll show people a picture of this - I promise!!!
September 10th: 19wks5days, today was such an emotional day for your Daddy and I. We went to U of M for your anatomy scan. I walked in there with many questions, and wondered if they would be answered, would our fears be confirmed, are you okay - can we breathe again after being so scared for 5 months? We got the best news we could ever imagine...you seem PERFECT - NORMAL - BEAUTIFUL. The Dr. is amazing, its like she is in my mind and knows what I need to hear. Her words still play over and over in my head. I am so proud of you, you are the strongest person I have ever met and I haven't even met you yet.
September 19th: 21 weeks, the great news made it over to Dr. F, he is so wonderful. Has such a huge heart and genuinely cares. We love him so much. Mommy is having some crazy bowel issues still so I have to take it extra easy so you can stay in my belly until its time for you to come out. No more ultrasounds for a while at his office...we will still go for our bi-weekly appointments but we have graduated from our bi-weekly ultrasounds :)
September 26th: 22 weeks, today Daddy and I went back to U of M for your heart test called a fetal echo. When the room gets silent and I'm hearing lingo I don't know, I get really scared. But guess what - once again your defy the odds and we are told your heart is normal! We leave feeling so beyond lucky. You were quite the funny little man today! It is so fun to watch you.
September 30th: We are getting ready for you! Last week we finished your registry which was SO much fun to do. I still get online daily and look at the things we are going to get for you. We bought your changing table and then a swing last week. We set up the swing in the living room before putting it away, and put it where it will go when you get here and sat on the couch just talking about you. Wow. Tonight we got a new refrigerator. Seems silly, but this is super exciting for us. Our old one leaked like crazy and I knew by the time you come I wouldn't want a leaky fridge - we want everything to be perfect for you! Oh ya, and by the way - today you nestled yourself way low in my pelvis...what in the world are you doing in there, come back up here - there is lots of room in the upper part of my belly. That would be much more comfortable for me and I can feel you kick more when you're up there! You're always trying to tease me in some way. But haha for you - I still have my doppler so even if I can't feel you, I can listen to you whenever I want!
October 3rd: 23 weeks, ahhhh - 1 month closer to meeting you! Just 3 months to go. I don't count January because by the time January 1st gets here the "day" countdown will begin. Today I had an appointment, didn't see you but you were talked about a lot :) Did you hear the Dr. bragging about you - my belly measured 24 weeks today which means you are growing GOOD! I was so happy to hear that my crazy pain is not affecting you at all. If you're good, then I'm good - whether I'm in pain or not. I gained 1 lb. per week the past 2 weeks which is good news - not too much, not too little. I really have to work on eating super healthy these next few weeks. Your friend Bradyn was born Oct. 1st at 26wks1day and he weighed 2lb2oz so I need to pack in that healthy food so you can grow big like him! Who would've guessed that you guys would be 3 months apart vs. 3 weeks apart! Your cousins will be spending the weekend with us so you will get talked to a lot. Kyle likes to tell you all sorts of things and when I ask him what he thinks you are doing he always says "probably pooping". You will love your cousins so much - they are the best and will teach you lots of things!
I like bored
Today I am trying to take it easy, a vow I made to myself last week...to take it more easy now that this pain is happening more and more often than it used to. Taking it more easy than my norm: not getting in and out of the car more than a couple times/day, making sure I try to do things at once when I get up vs. getting up 5 different times to do simple stupid things, etc. Well, I woke up at 7:30 this morning so that makes for a long day. Then I just realized, who cares - I'm GLAD I'm bored! Its chilly outside and the baby, Max, Salsa, and I are cozy in here and being bored means everything is good. A good friend of mine, who I met early in my pregnancy, who was also on modified bed rest (for different reasons than I of course) - is now in the hospital. She is 3 wks farther along than me, and went into pre-term labor at 25 weeks. Terrifying. An acquaintance of mine that I have known since when we began trying to get pregnant just lost her baby at 21 weeks. She had no complications and a "normal" pregnancy - so the Dr.'s thought. Even MORE terrifying beyond words. She and I called each other "due date buddies" and moved from our online "trying to conceive" group to the "grad" group together. We were due just 1 week apart. My heart aches for her, no one should ever have to go through this. Why am I writing such depressing news in my journal? Because one day I will be reading this and realize all over again how precious life is and how lucky I am to still be pregnant with our little boy. I don't think I'll ever need a reminder of that, but who knows - 20 years from now maybe I will block some of this stuff. I can't say it enough, I really am the luckiest person in the world. This Friday I will be 23 weeks...that means only 4 more weeks until I enter my third trimester. Just so surreal.
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